Im not who you think

Today i got to thinking about everything. About who i was and who i turned into. Things have changed so much in the past year, i’ve tried to forget about it but i really cant. I miss having a bestfriend. I miss how my family used to think of me. I miss all my friends, and i miss the things we used to do. I know getting trouble wasnt that great, but it was fun doing it. I really cant forget all the things we all used to go through. The times we got caught with alot of weed on us, plano centre, all the lame and the good parties, the rolling times, how myspace used to be the best thing ever, how scene was so in, how much shit everyone talked, how we used to go to the mall all the time, how we first started smoking cigarettes and didnt want our parents to know.

Growing up is a part of life, i hate the change, but change makes the better of us. It helps us realize who our real friends our, and who we really are. I would kill to go back and re-live all these moments.

I used to be so into tumblr, and myspace.

I used to love going out all the time and just having so many friends.

I used to do alot of things…

i guess thats apart of change, im so different than what i used to be. And for some reason it feels so wrong.

I unexpectedly moved to a new town, a small town. Called Celina. I really do hate it here, theres nothing to do, and the school is wack. The people there are alright, but not like little elm. I miss it there so much. 

I have fallen off the face of the earth, for real. I got a new phone, with no numbers, in it. And i have no computer at my house, so ive basically had no choice, i had no way of talking to any of my friends. But the good part is, im staying out of trouble. Which i guess is good, but i have to blame it on the place i live in. Theres really nothing out here you can get introuble for. 

You know, i really wouldnt be in the situation if i would of just acted better. But thats hard to do in little elm when you are surrounded by heroin addicts, youve got your meth heads, people out their CRAVE for drugs. No matter how bad i acted and how much i got introuble there, i will ALWAYS miss it. I miss the people, the fun, the memories i had there. But i always knew i was never going to get into a good college if i stayed there. So maybe this is good for me..

All i know is, i miss how things were a year ago, only if i could go back to those times. Id be the happiest person on earth, instead of what i am now.

which means party party party!

I hate feeling alone. This is the second time ive been kicked out, yet this time its for no reason. SO i have no phone and no computer.

AND megan fox is married now, fml.